i so hate his ex-girlfriend

Before anything else, I would like to emphasize that I am just expressing my thoughts. I am not okay with what is happening right now. To my boyfriend who for sure the first person to read this, sorry for feeling this way. She doesn't know anyway about this blog. I am hurting. I don’t need to be reprimanded. If you think I am insane, better tell your ex to back off.

I met my boyfriend exactly four months ago. I was not sure if I met him brokenhearted. He was skinny and pale. I was not sure if it was sorrow or vengeance I saw on his eyes. I just enjoyed talking to him. I was listening to him attentively. The next we knew, we became a couple.

Last December 2008, his ex-girlfriend came out of the picture. It was just like all the soap operas I saw on tv, ex-girlfriend trying to win back the guy. As in OMG! what am I into? First of all, I was never in a love triangle. Second, I had my heart broken twice with the same man (another story). Third, I am a product of a broken home. Fourth, I just lost a cousin. To sum it up, I just lost almost everything, more than half of me perhaps. I had been a lot and losing another loved one would be unbearable already. Why is it so easy to break a heart, but so hard to make it whole again? I was tearing apart again and again. I would not want to go back from the get-go. I just wanted to be happy, that’s all. I did not ask God too much. I did not ask for a handsome man; I was just asking for someone who would love me and stay by me. I did not ask Him to make me rich; having my family is more than any wealth in the world. I cannot take things lightly this time because it has caused me stress. It seems my heart does not know how to get tired. Even if I stumbled a million times, it did not stop me from hoping.

I really want to talk to that girl and settle things with her accordingly. As far as I am concerned, their six year relationship is over. I had also been dumped by my former because he found another. The pain was excruciating, but I just had to give up and let go. I am also a fighter, but I know when to end the battle. It may not be a win-win situation at first, but it will be eventually. Now, that girl has been texting and calling my boyfriend yesterday. As a matter of fact, she knew I was around. The nerve of that girl! I am not an insecure woman, but what she is doing is disturbing me. It is not an issue if they did not burn bridges, but she is acting as if she owns my boyfriend. Take note, she has a fiance, OFW. She is like a mouse playing because the cat is not around. It is still infidelity. Poor guy! He does not know that his girlfriend/fiancee is just using him or whatever her intentions are (it does not concern me). Ooops.. I don’t mean to be rude. Well, she made the first move.


To you E.M.:


*It is rude to call my boyfriend knowing that I exist in his present life, not unless it is about your debt to him. Personal calls are not allowed. Just imagine your fiance’s ex calling him!


*It is rude to compare your relationship you had with him and ours.


*It is rude boasting how you surprised him on his birthday. FYI: I did not buy him a cake because he is on a GERD diet, if you know what that means. Do not assume that I cannot buy him a cake. How immature! There are a lot of ways to celebrate my dear.


*It is rude implying statements that you are the only one capable of loving him. Excuse me, that is not love. You seem so needy to have a boyfriend. You are free to deny, to hell I care.


*It is rude inventing stories that he is still head over heels in love with you. You want me to feel jealous. Go ahead, I don’t have a shallow mind to believe you. I trust my boyfriend, not you.


*Most of all, you have a fiancé and hello?! Why do you still want to hook up with your ex who is my boyfriend.


*I thought there is no turning back. That is your shoutout in your friendster. Stuff that in your big mouth. Action speaks louder than words.


*Stop pretending you have learned to be independent. What you are showing right now just proves what a leech you are.


*Lastly, move on, get a life, set him free, and be happy.

C'mon please don't make life complicated for all of us.