shocking revelation

The face-off took place at his boarding house. I received two text messages from him or her? "or" because it was the ex-gf's number. All my nerves were shaking. I called his landline, to my surprise, it was her who answered. At that moment, I started drowning. I asked a few questions then ended the conversation. As I was about to go out from my house searching air to breathe, my phone rang. It was her. Unexpectedly the two of us talked. He was crying in pain I guess. I am not questioning their six year, it is just that how about me? Am I going back to scratch and start all over again? I learned shocking revelations from her. It was all against Rodel. Guess, I have not known him yet. I pitied her somehow. She was crying like a baby. I pulled all the force I could gather to keep cool and sane. My blood was rushing all over my face and my hands were shaking. Now, I hate this part. She mentioned how Rodel treated her badly and how he was womanizing. Gosh! I wanted to stop those truths? (that I have to hear from him straight) entering my mind. All the things she said to me repeatedly echoed. As I was walking looking for food, I started to feel numb. I even feel like a paralyzed man sitting now with only my fingers capable of moving. I am good person...a good person...I don't deserve being hurt all over again. If he was faking all these times, for five months, how could he sleep soundly at night. My family welcomed him as well as my friends... how could he do this if this is true? I'm waiting for his words.