self update

I'm busy lately. I just hope I'm not causing myself to stress too much. The brighter side, I believe, the wicked witch of my life has disappeared for quite a long time. That one person causing my paranoia, jealousy, insecurity, and the like. If there is one thing to wish, I want her to disappear forever! I have been sneaking Rodel's phone from time to time and gladly, her messages are not flooding as if she doesn't know how to sleep. When it comes to Rodel, there is no night or day for her. hmp! I'm praying for her healing to be honest! She stole my valentine's gift to him and deleted all my photos in this pc. And it is so unfair Rodel didn't let me tore his graduation picture with her beside.

So what's keeping me busy?

I'm going to law school, finally, after four long years of unproductivity and idleness. My brain cells are kicking and alive now. It has been inactive for the past four years. I was kinda disappointed after getting the same IQ score way back 2001. Rodel keeps on bullying me. If only I did something healthy for the brain, reading perhaps.

I had my interview with the assistant dean before the enrollment proper. His room was like an extension of the north pole. 'Twas freezing. I could hardly open my mouth. Anyway, as expected, he asked me that one million dollar question. "why law?" Of course, I have prepared my "miss universe" answer for that. C'mon, it's not world peace okay! Hahahaha. As long as we are on earth, there is no peace! So what was my answer? mmmmmmmm.. I'll reserve it for the first day of classes hek hek hek. I was not able to give all my answers, we were so into our conversation..ooops.. actually, he was! I was in a hurry to pay the cashier and finish everything.

So what now?

I have to go home and pack all my formal wardrobe back here. I cannot attend my classes wearing skinny jeans. I got only one pair of slacks. I have to get rid of my slippers from now and get myself used to wearing close shoes. It's really like old school.

What feels like to be a student?

Cool?! yeah, you would get discounts anywhere! I was walking at the mall while waiting for the registrar to open and saw this salon offering discounts to students... Every time, I will ride a public transpo, I'll ask for a student privilege even if it means arguing the ignorant driver. Sorry! he better not complain.

Education is one thing that cannot be taken away from you, not even the wicked witch you're evading. I am tired lying in my bed and cause myself to recall the bad times. I have a dead-end job. I wouldn't wish to stay old typing the whole eight hours. I must make something different in my life and being self sufficient is one. If my employer loses business? (knock on wood?!) what will become of me? This really worries me. I know that I cannot save a portion of my fixed income, but what if I will die tomorrow? I cannot bring it with me to hell or heaven...wherever... At least I did something productive even if it took me so long to do it. At least I did something educational. At least I did something for self-development, self-advancement, personal growth and all for myself.

As what I have learned in this hard life, we must not allow ourselves to become dependent on other people, not even to loved ones. At the end of the day, we return to our own abode. We are accountable to ourselves. We make our lives.

The question is "what have we done?" not "what they have done to us?"